Within the walls of a crumbling world

I am broken and I am shattered,

But you can’t see the pieces, I believe you don’t, you can’t

You only see me as a ghost in your void

And you still try to tell me who I am, who I’m supposed to be

You can’t even see yourself, for who you really are, in the mirror,

I believe you don’t, you can’t,

You’ve refused to see the demons in disguise

You’ve convinced yourself of the pretty big lie.

Your aims, dreams and fears, merely drugs they’ve sold you,

To keep you overdosed and blind, at the cost of souls and lives,

Too bad, too sad, you’ve snuffed too much of it

Too late, too wretched, you’ve lost too much hope of freedom

You wish, you prey, you preach to the world,

Yet too scared, too alarmed, too deep in the swamp of blissful selfishness

You refuse to take action, you refuse to rise above

You puny mother fucker, wake up, make your stand

Nothing is standing in your way, but you

Accept the destiny shoved down your throat or make one of your own,

Stand by what you believe in or convince yourself you don’t,

Set your will, either choose to stand up or shut up and walk away,

Quit painting everything in a comforting grey

Do yourself a favor; quit lying, to others, to your pitiful self,

And know that your defeat was the fault of your own

Or kill the demons that they’ve chained to your soul,

Those demons that haunt you, shape you, control you,

You’ve really let those demons eat your soul to the core, for way too fucking long

You aren’t what they shape and make you be, make you believe

Its just the virus they’ve planted deep in your being, destroy

Demons can only breed within till you hold them in, let go

Shut out the ones who don’t understand, the ones who shove it down your throat

It is your future, it is everyones future,

That you are a part of, that you are held responsible of,

Open your eyes, break free your locked up mind

Know that you are strong, countless millions strong, that you are all,

Who were, who are, and who will be

Fight for your rights, for everyone’s rights, escape your cage, this prison, the downfall…

 

 

V.

Leave me alone!

Learn the lesson of life,

You only loath the you, you see in me;

What you have in you, that I have in me,

That you love to hate

Learn the lesson of love,

You love me not knowing who I ought to be

You only love what you see in you, that I have in me, that you wish to see

But I really only am what you hate to love, that is all I’d ever be

Through the endless pages,

It is only you, all you, lost in your own story,

Trying to look through the selfishness that beats you blind

Trying to catch the dream that always slips and hides

Is it really my fault you hate me now?

Is it really my fault you fell in love?

It was always about you in your self-centered universe,

Trying to find what you set out to seek

Learn the lesson of life,

Look inside, not me, but you

Have you figured you out,

Before you can me?

Don’t pretend you want to listen,

You want to know

Don’t pretend you want to look inside,

You want to see the truth etched in my soul

You will never be able to see all my wounds

And not be in disgust

And still accept me, for who I really am,

Not for who you thought I would, I should, be

Your beauty is just the mirage

That veils your filth and ugliness inside

It is the illusion,

That tricks me, cuts me, eats me up

You probably knew all about it all along

It made you so good at using it to your advantage

Does my pain matter to you anyway?

You knew that is what made me tick, oh, how you make me sick!

You use and abuse those who believe and trust in you,

Without shedding a tear,
Without a moments regret

You are the master and you are the beast

But I like how you always love to play,

Play the master of puppets,

But you ought to know you are weak,

I’d chop both your hands off

You wear your mask and still preach to me,

Think I’d never realize, what's under that pretty face,

The same stinking flesh that I have under mine,

Same sinful thoughts, I bear in my mind

You are just crooked, as crooked as I am,

Don’t you judge me of my sins, deprive me of my pride,

You know you've never been a saint,

You know you've only been a lie, living in a lie

V.

Carnal Love…

…I say to her, close your eyes my love, see the limits fade into distant horizons as my lips touch yours soft and tender in a kiss filled with sweet, lingering warmth. As I hold her in my arms and our bodies intertwine, our being becomes one and we lose ourselves in one another, once again. Our bodies fail to chain us separate any longer and that sweet feeling runs deep, deep inside to the very core of our being, so full and so rich. Flesh binds flesh with the thread of burning lust whilst our souls remain interlaced in the mystic beauty of love.

I feel her swans caught under my chest rise with each inhale, and I move down to taste her nipples; they are as firm and erect as solid crystals and they bring the taste of sweet strawberries fresh. I feel the warmth of her every exhale and I hear her moans like sweet music in my ears. I feel her body move and shiver, with each kiss, each touch, I intend to leave no spot untouched.

I feel her lips and tongue swiftly run through every inch of my body the next second. I feel as though my body is in flames and I am about to explode, aching for her serene touch. My heart pounds heavier with each passing second and the world becomes a blur, only thoughts of her left in my mind while I chase sanity. I believe even heavens melt when love so pure comes to life, and we make love till we give birth to love itself.

And I kiss her a thousand times more all over again, wet, moist, she feels my lips. She feels my teeth sink in slowly into her chocolate brown skin and tease as I move from her neck to her toe tips. I leave untouched, the most sensitive and sacred till the end, till her mind runs wild with pouring colors and growing anticipation. My tongue gently brushes the flower above her sacred altar then, and only then, before quietly moving into the opening, and I slip in my tongue as deep as it runs. And I suck the nectar that comes pouring, every single drop that drips, her sweet flower in my mouth, in goes a finger, two, three then a fist. Her moans turn into cries and screams, but she still would not back down; she tells me she finds pleasure in pain. It drives me insane, reasons unknown even to myself, and I take my time till I know I have pushed her over the edge. And I take a moment to glance at her face, to gaze into her beautiful eyes, her smile, it is the sweetest I have ever seen, and I have to stop, I have to stop and kiss her lips, as I cannot resist, for a long sweet while.

We remain in our sweet embrace for another second before tides of aphrodisia pull us in, and the turn is hers, and she isn’t going to wait. She pushes me down to the pillow, and I don’t hesitate, instead I savor her every kiss, every lick, every bite. She touches me in a way that makes me feel as though there is electricity running through my veins. By the time she gets to where she is intending, my lips have already run dry with pleasure so intoxicating.

I feel paralyzed as I lay down there, as I feel her lips wrapped around wet and warm and her tongue running up and down, in slow gentle motion. Paradise surely must be burning with flames of carnality now, and I fail to hold in these roaring rampant impulses that scream inside. She feels the veins bursting out and the rod pulsing, and she sucks it like a tigress staved for days till there is liquid love dripping like the juice of a thousand cherries red. I pull her back and lick her from the navel up and over her throat, before she stops me with a rain of kisses. I put her on the bed, I pin her down, and she surrenders without a whisper, without a sound, we both know we are yearning for the same irresistible sin.

Passion pours in the form of sweat that drips and our bodies move so smoothly, skin caresses skin. We devour each other with our lips, teeth, tongue and finger tips. Cuffs chains and whips cannot hold us down now, we have grown far too impatient, to unwind, unleash and set our souls free. It is as when raging burning steel is shoved in snow so tender and it starts to melt; she is as wet as winter and our fluids pour as free as water, and our tongues coil together once again. While our tongues play, my raging pulsing rod reaches so far deep in her that she feels it in her womb. And I feel her every muscle wrap around so tight, welcomingly moist, I taste sweet ecstasy divine. The chamber is so filled there is no space left, it feels like she is about to tear apart. Yet I feel vulgar, I try to shove my fingers in, insanity now is only a step away.

We engage as I lie on her divine body of a goddess, then as she lays on top of me.  And before I take her from behind, our eyes lock and we gaze into each other’s souls for a long everlasting second absorbing each other into our unified being fully. Temptation drives me to pull her by the hair and she turns and sinks her teeth into my arm, till her mark I bear. And our lips tremble before they consume each other again, and she would not let go, as I would not either. She holds my lips closer to hers with her teeth, till I bite back and we both taste our blood in our mouths. And we suck every drop, till no drop is left to bleed. We are too far gone to turn back; insanity takes us in its embrace, we remain enthralled for hours till sun light fades and reappears, in sheer madness.

Every second more wild and out of control than the one before, each movement heavier, louder, passion now blends with sweet aggression to create new temptation. Our veins and nerves explode with intense sensation and rapid pounding thrusts make the bed shake making much too noise for the outsiders to hear. We cannot bear it a moment further, and the feeling grows stronger, we have both reached the zenith of this divinely pleasure. And the nectar of love gushes into fill the passage of new life, whilst we both go blind in blissful oblivion, and before we return to our senses again...

V.

Is she you, are you her, have you heard, the tale of her...?

She has lied awake in her sorrow, in the still of the night, the still of the day,

Many a nights and many a days, only time has escaped,

She is trapped inside the same frame, she cannot break away

Emptiness has entrapped her mind

All the smiles and laughter she fakes,
The tears and screams she hides away,

Cannot heal the void inside, 
She feels forgotten, left behind

Memories of an unforgiving past,

Haunts her deep within, feeds on her fragile soul

Fear lurks in the corners of her world, now unknown

Stranger times, she has lost her mind

Voices creep out from the dark of night, whispering in her ear

She tries to cover her ears, in haste,

Though the horror never ends, not a moments escape

She wanders away in search of salvation, calm and silence, she never finds

Colors fade into black and white, 
beauty broken, twisted, and disfigured

The love she sought, has stabbed her in her broken heart, once again

Everyone who ever came has always left

All the love, all the empathy, now in vain

Betrayal chokes her virtue, as twilight turns to night and steals the light,

Stealing away the spark in her eyes,

Anger and rage rape her mind, she loses her grip,

The world keeps spinning faster and faster, round and round

Confusion, anger, pain, and sorrow,

Crush her innocence; she seeks salvation in revenge and sin,

She feels the void growing within her, ever so faster

While she drowns herself in this blackened ocean

She looks at the barren sky wide open,

Betrayal, secrets and lies shamelessly crawl about in the open

Afraid to spread her wings and fly,

She is caught in a tangled maze

Wandering only takes her to stranger lands, she cannot relate

I hope she will find again, someday,

Compassion and love, that warm her heart, in her own secret place

I hope her wounds will disappear in the sweet embrace of the light of time,

And she will run no more, and hide away

She will find the spark in her eyes,

And the smiles absent of sadness she knew as a child

She will come to life again, innocence reborn,

In her secret garden, where forever love blooms…

V.